I wake up at 3 am, thinking that she'd wake up again, like she did yesterday and the day before yesterday. She didn't. I guess my body is used to waking up at that time. After a trip to the restroom, I lazily move around the kitchen thinking whether or not I should have a glass of water. I want to avoid another nature's call. I take a sip of water to soothe my dry throat and think about going back to sleep. My stomach grumbled. It needed a snack, I guess. But, why? I ate good at dinner. I open the refrigerator and look for something to munch. Sweet or salty? I get confused. I can't decide. I give up and ignore the sounds of my stomach. What now? I clean up the living room, arrange everything. Rearrange her toys. Everything looks fine now.
I check on her. She's sleeping peacefully. Good. I lie down besides her. I can't sleep. I remember some things to do. I realize that I forgot to put up the sticky note with my to-do list for tomorrow. I do that. I lie down again. My back hurts. I ignore it, as usual. I try to think about good things that can happen or could have happened. I think about the past and pretend to mend some things. I get bored. She moved. I get ready for a session on putting her back to sleep. She changed her position and didn't move again. I relax. She looked cute. I give a peck on her cheek. I try to think about some more good things. I sleep, finally, I don't know when.
I wake up at 5 am...
I check on her. She's sleeping peacefully. Good. I lie down besides her. I can't sleep. I remember some things to do. I realize that I forgot to put up the sticky note with my to-do list for tomorrow. I do that. I lie down again. My back hurts. I ignore it, as usual. I try to think about good things that can happen or could have happened. I think about the past and pretend to mend some things. I get bored. She moved. I get ready for a session on putting her back to sleep. She changed her position and didn't move again. I relax. She looked cute. I give a peck on her cheek. I try to think about some more good things. I sleep, finally, I don't know when.
I wake up at 5 am...
Aww.. The journey of being a mother.. never ends! Right! :)
ReplyDeleteI had the thought of an angel, like that guardian-angel that we all have, or that our families have.. something like that.. No? It's kinda like that, when you look after your little bud whole night..
:) Makes me smile. In fact, it's like this: see everytime I see you writing about her and your experiences and sometimes, the frustration that comes with the whole package of being a mother, I feel even more strongly for my own mom. Like I help her do small things that might not be a huge contribution but makes her life a little easier.. And she appreciates that which makes me smile like a CLOWN but I'd do anything to make her and Dad happy ANYDAY! :)
i remember my sisters' days of motherhood...
ReplyDeletetake care..
@Ipoo: parenthood makes you realize and appreciate the hard work and patience that your parents put in your growing-up process! when San throws tantrums during mealtime, I remember how finicky I used to be and how hard it was for my parents to deal with me! i'm glad that you feel strongly for your parents and try to help them wherever you can. :)
ReplyDeletehaha typical mother actions.lol
ReplyDeletesleepless nights Mother is a job for lifetime
A former colleague told me...that the moment her first baby came to the world Her mom said...Girl Ur a mom now and thats for the rest of ur life.LOL
enjoy the sweet sleep of San .Time goes fast.
and before u know the handsome boys ring at ur door.
SUPERMOM > Superman ki maa :) - vijay
ReplyDeleteMy Sister is going through the wake up at night thing, when jaiveer wakes up my jiju will sing Natinal ANthem and " mere desh ki dharti sona ugle .. " song to him. He then sleeps. Poor soul.
ReplyDeleteMothers are good ! ;) my mom does a lot for me even now. Thursday night i reached home at 2 am. She got up from sleep and started heating the food for me. She is above 50 now. She could have easily asked me to do it in the microwave.
ReplyDeleteI too use post its and stick ONs a lot, they make the notes so much colorful, i use them in my notebooks, my desk, diary every where.